Deleting profiles

I have a tendency to delete my profile pages on sites like these so now that I'm back I just thought I'd explain myself in order to feel somewhat less awkward.

I was previously known as pigasus. Only a few people here would remember me but anyway... I feel kinda bad about the habit of avoidance I have and I think I'd feel more comfortable and less likely to leave again if others understood my behaviour.

Basically, I leave because I feel unable to communicate properly with others. There are people that I feel expected (and want) to be friendlier around, but I'll end up talking to them as if they are complete strangers. I feel embarrassed about it and worry that they will see it as a form of rejection. In addition to that, my reclusiveness kinda defeats the purpose of being here, but I guess I should try to work on that so...

hello again