phoenixrising - Male - Australia

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If only my life could be more like the movies. I want an angel to swoop down to me like he does to Jimmy Stewart in "It's a Wonderful Life" and talk me out of suicide. I've always waited for that one moment of truth to set me free and change my life forever. but he won't come. it doesn't happen that way

Been suffering from Anxiety and Depression for 10 years now. Some things get better others get worse, somethings never seem to change.

I really want to fix my life, but I suffer from a total lack of resilence, I feel weak and brittle.

Id really like a group of friends, and a LIFE, someone to be in love with and to feel CONTENT with my life, instead of always feeling like a complete and utter waste of space.

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phoenixrising added a new comment on lyricalliaisons's blog.

I know how you feel

June 21, 2010 8:06 am - Report

phoenixrising added a new comment on bk's blog.

I think as your parents are on vacation, you should have your own vacation, write up a planner of activities to do everyday, and enjoy having the house to yourself!

June 21, 2010 7:32 am - Report

phoenixrising added a new blog "Anxiety is kinda arrogant".

June 21, 2010 7:28 am - Report

phoenixrising added a new comment on Nysrok's blog.

I often get into these ruts, to the point were my room becomes unliveable, the longer your in the rut, the harder it is to get out off. One method I use is to tell myself just to do one task then I can stop(eg - make the bed) by the time youve made the bed, the motivation builds and you end up clea... View More

April 23, 2010 6:42 am - Report

phoenixrising added a new comment on jtb3485's blog.

Well Done, its good that you have a plan, Im starting a new job in two weeks, so Im trying to prep myself up now so I can get a hold on the anxiety, Hope the job goes well for you

April 16, 2010 9:36 am - Report

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lyricalliaisons wrote at January 24, 2010

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Ive been in this situation many times, credit card companies are pure evil, the fees are insane, most of what i owe is made up of late payment, over limit, overdraft fees, its never ending, its so hard to get ahead.

Im not sure whats in your area, but you could contact the salvation army or something like that and they may beable to bring food out to you, or if you recieve a government payment ask for a hardship allowance, you may beable to get one of those to tie you over until feb

Hope everything works out

Hi & Thanks for your comment :smile:. I completely agree about credit cards & wish I had never gotten any, but I was 19 & didn't realize what I was doing at the time. I was basically thinking of it as free money & by the time I realized it wasn't it was too late.

You gave me an idea. My mom went to the Salvation Army for years (it's a church-- a lot of people don't know that) until recently when her health has been keeping her from it. I completely forgot about them giving people food when they need it until your comment. My mom talked to them & they said they'd give us some & my uncle is supposed to pick it up tomorrow, so we should have enough to last until my mom's check comes in.

Ospi wrote at January 12, 2010

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Hey mate, good to have aussies on here!

FrogLover wrote at January 4, 2010

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hey hows it going? Happy New Year!

mserychic wrote at January 2, 2010

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i still have a massive amount of debt, but it feels so much better to be paying it down instead of adding to it. i was pretty sure i was going to give myself a heart attack there for awhile!

ohioisforloners wrote at January 2, 2010

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how are you doing?
It's so freakin' cold here!

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