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A model who isn't exactly the cats meow wrote this: HEY LADIES. I have to ask you a favor. Read this all the way through, even...
A model who isn't exactly the cats meow wrote this: HEY LADIES. I have to ask you a favor. Read this all the way through, even...
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Posted March 10, 2010 by girlncahoots
not to drown myself in sorrows to prevent from losing my self worth, but i swear to god i feel so incredibly ugly. I think other people think so too, but wont admit it. I know i wouldn't if i thought someone was. I wouldn't want to hurt their feelings. Because of this, my SA is FAR worse than it was. How can you feel good about yourself if you don't even feel worthy of anyone's time and frankly like a &%#@ eyesore to them. I know i'm not hideous, but i feel far less than cute. I feels like now that i look different b/c i gained some weight and maybe aged a little, people are judging me more and less apt to be my friend. I don't know what the &%#@ is going on in my brain. I'm so discontent with everything. I'm working on getting a job very soon and will see an employment specialist ,FINALLY, through voc rehab. Hopefully i can get something easy to get to without a car in this godforsaken spread out town. I feel like i repel everyone and i don't know why. I have dated this guy who seemed to really like me and i wasn't over my ex and now that im finally getting over him he seems to have lost interest after hanging out. It doesn't make any &%#@ sense. He probably wants a skinny bitch, as per usual and expected. I'm feel so negative right now b/c ive had horrible chronic pain and it hasn't been subsiding. It's all over my body. I feel helpless. All i can do is keep up with the yoga and live another day. &%#@ my life, seriously.
I know i sound like a whiney teenager , but i cant help it , it's me and i have to get it out. It's me. Take it or leave it.
I lost someone who wanted a baby with me, he was so quick to wanting a baby, too quick and everything just got distorted from there. It's a twisted tale and too long to tell right now. Lets just say that in the end, losing my ex, made me lose a great deal of myself. We were best friends and i predicted it would end tragically like it has. It's pathetic. I am pathetic.
I know i sound like a whiney teenager , but i cant help it , it's me and i have to get it out. It's me. Take it or leave it.
I lost someone who wanted a baby with me, he was so quick to wanting a baby, too quick and everything just got distorted from there. It's a twisted tale and too long to tell right now. Lets just say that in the end, losing my ex, made me lose a great deal of myself. We were best friends and i predicted it would end tragically like it has. It's pathetic. I am pathetic.
Florian Kornberger wrote at March 10, 2010
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I second what ShyGuy said and speak from experience. When you feel like sh*t physically, it can affect your whole outlook on yourself so adversely. Combined with the insecurities that are already there, it can really squash the perceptions of yourself. Hope you feel better soon 
ShyGuy82 wrote at March 10, 2010
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I tend not to compliment girls on here because I don't want it to be misconstrued, but I've always thought you were very pretty.
Losing someone you care about is always hard. I don't know how long ago your relationship ended, but time really does help in my experience.
I'm sorry about the chronic pain. I have on and off joint pain and I'm always a little down when it's "on." It's hard to feel good emotionally when you're physically miserable.
Losing someone you care about is always hard. I don't know how long ago your relationship ended, but time really does help in my experience.
I'm sorry about the chronic pain. I have on and off joint pain and I'm always a little down when it's "on." It's hard to feel good emotionally when you're physically miserable.
girlncahoots wrote at March 10, 2010
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It's so true Shy. I can't get my bearings mentally when i'm physically in hell. The two work hand in hand in order to keep me healthy. Thank you very much for your compliment. <3
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Oracle wrote at March 10, 2010
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OMG! Are you kidding me? You are super beautiful! How can you not see that? I've seen your pictures, you are all woman, all curvy and beautiful, you're what men want! Can't you see that? How you can feel ugly surprises me, because you really look fantastic in my eyes. And no, I'm not saying that to be nice. I mean it. We all feel like we're not good enough - hell, didn't you see what i did the other day with my pics? WHO in their right mind does THAT? Only someone who's crazy insecure about how they look and needs reassurance from the outside world. Now THAT's the definition of pathetic. Not you!! Please believe me, you are all woman, all beautiful and very attractive.
I'm sorry things aren't working out with your bf right now and that you're hurting. And I'm sorry you lost a piece of yourself with your bf prior. Anyways, I think you look incredible and I love your courage to write this blog. I think you're amazing!
I'm sorry things aren't working out with your bf right now and that you're hurting. And I'm sorry you lost a piece of yourself with your bf prior. Anyways, I think you look incredible and I love your courage to write this blog. I think you're amazing!
girlncahoots wrote at March 10, 2010
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Now Oracle, why did you have to go and be nice AND skinny. That completely disrupts my entire theory of girls of a smaller proportion. They are no longer all bitches. Sigh. lol Seriously though, i don't know what i'm writing anymore, i'm just spewing my thoughts as they come without editing, aside from spelling and occasional grammar correction when in the mood lol.
Maybe it's not my looks and just my personality all together. I don't get it anymore. I repel people and those that i used to talk to have vanished from my life. Makes you think it's as if you were never really important to them, just a way to pass the time or someone they needed at that moment. Regardless though, thank you for your caring response. <3 BTW, i didn't catch what you did in your other pics...oh wait , you mean the poses you made? Meh, we all need a lil attention. It's healthy and you are beautiful and a loving person as it seems so soak it up while you still can i say.
Maybe it's not my looks and just my personality all together. I don't get it anymore. I repel people and those that i used to talk to have vanished from my life. Makes you think it's as if you were never really important to them, just a way to pass the time or someone they needed at that moment. Regardless though, thank you for your caring response. <3 BTW, i didn't catch what you did in your other pics...oh wait , you mean the poses you made? Meh, we all need a lil attention. It's healthy and you are beautiful and a loving person as it seems so soak it up while you still can i say.
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