hi my name is dead I've had severe SA since I was 6 it had impacted my whole life i thought i was just shy ,I was abused physically and verbally and emotionally when I was a kid and grew up in an unstable family that's why I developed anxiety disorders like SA ,GAD, panic disorder and agoraphobia(i haven't been diagnosed by a therapist cuz for some reason I ain't got any access to one) and have suffered from them throughout my life without knowing anything about them til i joined this website and read a couple of articles and stuff , I started reading a couple of self help books to educate myself I'm reading "the anxiety and phobia workbook" it's been so helpful so far I also got to meet a special person on one of these anxiety websites she's helped me alot to get better ( she was the one who sent me self help books since i even didn't have access to books) I used to call her doc she tremendously helped me get better(rebuild my self esteem,get educated about mental disorders etc etc) , I've been depressed for a year and half , something traumatic happened to me like 10 months ago and i fell into a deep depression but i've gotten much better depression wise(thanks to that special someone ;p ) I urged myself to do stuff I'd never imagine to do I traveled to another country all alone i was thousands of miles far away from my comfort zone but it was too late to change my mind and I shared a room with strangers in a hostel despite my severe SA cuz i was running outta money that was one hell of a exposure I did unconsciously lol since then i've gotten much i don't need anyone accompany to go to different places and do stuff.
I play electric guitar ,started playing like 7 years ago it's a looooooooong time that I haven't practiced at all cuz of my anxiety and depression I've been trying hard to better my life but it all backfired that's why I've given up on all my dreams I'm trying to stay strong though and don't give up hope